Pangkor?

Yes. This CNY we will going to Pangkor to join Biq's family. Ramai. Kak Saba aje xdek. Arini tgh rajin so tulis blog. nak blog panjang kang tunggu blk dr pangkor confirm biq buat blog huhuhu.

We had Chilis for lunch today. Thank you Papi. I'm feeling much more better today. Pagi2 papi dh hulur duit. Thank you Papi. I dont know why but i just take the money huhuhuhu. Then after lunch we were window shopping. Actually looking for Sami's topi, wetsuit and besday present. Nak bagi ape kat si kecik tu? banyak nye bende nak buat. Hish

2009 list

January
1. Tengok house property
2. Pangkor for CNY
3. Need to set appointment with Dr. Ariza - ape kena ngan hormone aku nih

February
1. PD on Hari Wilayah
2. All star game on the 16th
3. Sami's Besday Partey

March
1. Sg.Petani for Intan's wedding
2. Redang for 2nd anniversary

April

May

June
1. Spore for Man's wedding

July

August

September

October
1. Papi's besday

November

December

throughtout 2009 i need to find new job. i hope a very nice millionaire will hire me and pay me well.

Be back

2009 -January Blues

I can say i'm not so excited about 2009. Beside planning for blast partey, not much really happen. We had to find new place to live and decided to choose Kinrara area. Biq la yg paling sukak. And then i'm started to feel work stress. suddenly. bahbi betol. patu slowly walks into depression. paling sial aku sedar and cant do anything plak tu. i was so depressed pasal ape? i dont really know. pasal keje? aah memang. aku dh xnak keje. tolong la. jadik part timer kt 7e pon aku sanggup. Papi suh sabar. ok aku sabar. Patu start susu kurang. omg. aku aku depress. After 2weeks i lost 4kgs and susu stok tinggal cukup seminggu (padahal baru gain weight tuh)

Yesterday i feels much better. Thank you sista!! still the susu xbyk and no letdown but i dont feel stress anymore. Aku dah lapa balik huhuhu. I need to eat and drinks a lot. I'm started berangan again and look forward for Pangkor. Yeah we are going to Pangkor this CNY with biq's family. Tonite we are going to visit little Humairah. Cant wait to see her.

I'm going to 31 this year and i'm 51kg today. Hamboi kurusnye aku!!!

p/s - kena mekap nih kalu idak nanti vie ckp aku tua plak huishhh

Memori Daun Pisang

tajuk tiada kena ngena ngan cite nih. harap maklum. ekceli tgh nk abiskn masa kt opis tetiba tingat zaman perkenalan ngan papi.. cheewahh

pada sesiapa yg xtau & nak tau meh sini la nak bgtau. aku kenal ngan papi kt orange. iye. club orange tu. org kampung kata disko (sungguh xsenonoh jumpak suami kt tmpt cmtu kahkahkahkah). tmpt muda mudi nari suka ria. aku bukan jenis clubbing pon. tapi aku masuk gak la club2 nih. time tu aku ikut biqq. dia suka berdansa. kalu dia masuk sehati berdansa tuh kompom menang. cuma aku xdpt bygkn la uncle c tu leh menari. sbb aku xpenah pegi club ngan uncle c. dr cite biqq uncle c tu hebak menari zaman2 spiral dulu. aku bayangkn aje la.

di malam yg bersejarah tu, aku dtg ngan na cik elly n enda. kitorg dr subang. bese la dulu mlm minggu suka lepak umah enda. ntah apesal ntah. mungkin sbb umah enda lebih kemas & dekat ngan tmpt mkn. ewah. kitorg pg orange pon sbb nk memenuhi janji menemankn biqq. petama kali aku jumpa papi time tu aku ngan biqq tgh menunggu seseorang (sestgh nama xleh reveal disini) kt entrance, and then 'dh dtg?' tegur sorg mamat dari blkg. aku pon menoleh 'huh pendeknye' komen ku dlm ati. maybe sbb time tu aku pakai heels. patu biqq pon kenalkn kitorg 'hasrul' 'skin'. aku pon salam. eh ade salam ek biqq? aku lupe lah. patu papi leh ckp 'aku pon nak la tattoo cmnih' hehehehe bleh la dia pasan kitorg pakai tattoo butterfly kt blkg. ha iye. aku mmg seksi. xdek le seksi sgt mlm tu. pakai jenas ngan sleeveless aje pon. tapi aku ngaku la dr dulu smpai skang lebih kurang sama aje fashionnye.

aku xsure org yg ditunggu tu dtg ke dak tapi end up kitorg masuk blk club & nari. aku time2 tu xdek le nari sgt sbb aku nari sukati mak pak aku. tarian aku sama la ngan nyanyian. xmasuk kod langsung.main belasah aje. asal rasa besh dihati. patu smpai satu masa aku fedap ngan sorg budak nih yg xabis2 usha nk nari ngan aku, aku pon ngan selamba tarik papi ajak menari..

ha time nari nih mula la aku nari yg bukan2. kire kalu time nih ade org gelak pon mmg patut la dorg gelak sbb ntah ape2 la tarian aku tu. patu kuarla lagu 'hot in herre' ewahhh aku pon bagai dirasuk la nari peluk2 tarik2 baju. time tu aku tgk papi dh tnganga2 dah. aku xbape ingt tarian papi sbb aku bukan pedulik sgt pon time tu kahkahkahkahkah.

abis masa tutup club kitorg pon nk blah. aku nye kemalasan bwk kete mmg dari dulu so aku suh enda drive. time nih aku dh cm sedar diri sket so tetiba dtg la malu sbb sukati aje aku nari ngan mamat tak dikenali. seb beik dia kawan biqq. tapi sbb kawan lagik la aku cpt2 nk blah. tapi biqq ngan papi sebok nak ajak kitorg lepak minum. dgn alasan nk blk subang terus kitorg blah dr sini. oh yea. perhatian. kitorg xminum. jadik tarian aku mmg sumbang. bukan dipengaruhi oleh arak. makaseh.

ha kat situ la perkenalan aku ngan papi. elok la plak papi jenis pantas. terus dia nak kenalan ngan lebeh mesra. kitorg terus attached sesgt smpai skang. ntah ape papi jampi aku pon xtau. tapi aku mmg terpelik2 memula sbb apehal la nk bergelfrenkan ngan aku. ye la sapa nak pompan yg g clubbing. aku pon mmg tak sangka la bleh jumpak suami kat situ kahkahkahkahkah

papi ckp 'u seduced i'

aku ckp 'jgn nak perasan'

kihkihkih

errr cuba bygkn ape yg kitorg nak jawab bile sami tnya kang kat mana kitorg jumpak.. errr .. errr..

Apa Ada Dalam Bilik Opis

Bilik ku yg sungguh sepah. Apa ade? Meh kite check..

Atas meja:

1. koala bear kecik beso kotak tisu papi beli kt melben
2. patung pompan (patung lilin) - hoi napa aku ade patung2 nih? mcm horror aje
3. small hand rest pillow bentuk flower elly bagi for besday 2 thn lps
4. papers + rough papers + tender documents
5. IPTC tickets (byk plak tu..)
6. laptop
7. botol air 700ml (kaler purple) baru bli kt tesco
8. mug kotor bekas oat
9. tisu box
10. name card + name card holder + name card box (freak nye aku)
11. mug penuh ngan pen + pencils + ntah ape2 lagik
12.1 bottle of vits C yg dh bape thn tu.. hoii ntah2 dh expired
13.puncher
14. 1 big black calculator
15. i organizer
16. henpon
17. memo pad from clasquin
18. 2008 calendar

Bawah meja:

1. points
2. 3 pairs of shoes (xes & bonia)
3. 1 reef sandal
4. lacoste sling bag
5. victorinox laptop bag
6. avent cooler bag
7. papers (lagi) (bertimbun plak tu)

Tepi meja:
1. 1 goodie basket
2. accounting books (nak donate la buku2 tuh)
3. telekong + sejadah (hantaran kawin punye huhuhu)
4. door stopper
5. dustbin (belah kiri)
6. lemari file yg beso
7. another file bsepah2..


Hoiii byknye barangggggggggggggggg

Dalam laci toksah tnya ok kahkahakhkahkah

Dilema Hot Mami

Eiiii sedihnye.. 2-3 days before we went to Krabi, i had this major problem. My boobies no longer in Cup D size and the letdown omg tooks ages to come. Sami got hi, eh silap, very hi fever in Krabi but luckily the susu still ada & cukup for him eventho boobs kempes sentiasa.

Doc gives me Pil Tambah Susu the other day. Err my mistake maybe coz i didnt take as per prescrip.. heh konon takut kena bengkak susu. And the susu on off until last nite. Frust betol when sami cried as no let down & we have to give him EBM.

I've done everything:

- enfamama check
- oat + barli drinks check
- milk maid tea check
- fenugreek pill check
- pil tambah susu check
- 3 pumping session check
- direct feeding when with sami check
- eat in time check
- kurma + soya check (ermmm sedepnye ice blended kurma.. nk buat la mlm nih)
- tenangkn minda... errr nk check tapi tgh kacau jiwa ..how?

ok. i need to let go my stress. the depression comes when sami which is a very good boy marah2 bile let down xdek. sapa xmarah wei kalu cmtu. tapi bile sami marah mami terus stress. jgn marah mami sayang. i pray to Allah not to take the nikmat he gives me.

for those who wanted to know my feelings.. if i cant breastfeed sami until he's 2 i feels like i lost my life. lost peps who i love the most. i'm so devoted to breastfeed. i enjoy(should i put s?) breastfeed. i love breastfeed. i long to breastfeed. i hate formula. i hate peps discourage me.i hate peps ask me why i didnt give my sami formula. i love the feelings that i can hold sami, sapu2 kepala sami, cium2 tgn sami while he's enjoying his susu. I love the FACT that i lost weight because i breastfeed, i love to think that i got good figure by breastfeed. I love the thought that i dont need to worry to eat as i will lost callories everyday by breastfeed. I love the FACT that papi love me more when i breastfeed. I love to think that sami is a very fortunate boy. I'm a very lucky wife & proud hot mami.. oh I'm so obses to me Hot Mami. Hot Mami need big boobs. Pls susu dont go away..

saiko. i need to thinks something good. something best. go away. go away stress. frens pls doakan susu byk for me. byk susu. byk susu.

Ya Allah Ya Tuhanku..
Banyak kan la susuku..
Khasiatkan la susuku...
Cukupkan la susuku sekurang2 nye sami umur 2 tahun...

Amin..

We Just Fucked!

Suddenly tingat kat Fucker. Fucker is Papi's first & the only car. It was his dream car (skang dok sebok riki kete ape ntah aku pon xtau hape.. yg ku tau mahal.. huh jgn harap!) When papi showed me Fucker i supported him 100% (bukan duit aku pon). Yes he struggle tu get Fucker. Delay lama gak tuh. Seb beik the owner (ifi) sanggup tunggu. Even when he down 30k, i just being myself - the super duper ignorance :p (pinang aku pon xbyk tuh)

Fucker being such a good boy. He's hensem, solid, fuel saver (cam bluberi aje), hebak engine, super power kire bragging car lah! eceh. Lots of memories & many places we go with Fucker but i think paling jauh pon JB & Cherating je kot kahkahkahkah. Ingat lagik we played 'catch me if you can' with Adam (Adam was Biqq's first car). We went lots places gak with Adam around KL la hehehe. Papi alwiz leave Fucker with me when he outstation, normally i spent my time with sista kat mana lagik if bukan lifeband HW3 huhuhu. Gile sehh, gf nk pg club bf kasik kete kahkahkahkah.

I cant remember the year papi bought Fucker but not only good memories.. bad memories pon ade gak. The most ialah when papi kena rape. eceh. One fine morning (around 7am) when we walked towards Fucker yg papi park kt luar condo at 3am

'b! kete kena pecah!' luah papi dgn nada frust & muka upset semacam

me as usual muka bodoh

'bukak depan tgk engine u ade tak'

'ada'

Fiuuhh lega gak but we lost his seats, radio & ape gadget ntah yg ade kt dashboard tu. We lodge police report & while waiting for what i coudnt remember papi slowly...

'lambat sket la kite kawin'....

i was wtf! aku xtpikir pon psl kawin.. kesian nye papi (dlm ati la) but as usual mulut & tingkahlaku ku sama hebat.. i hold his hand... & we sat there quietly. Huh haru gak time tu, byk duit abis. demyuh pemecah kereta orang!

And still remember also that theres a time where we had an argument & i lost my temper. I dont remember what we argue about but i was so upset till i throw glade to Fucker screen. Retak. kahkahkahkahkah (huh jahat siot). Can u imagine that Fucker who being secure with so called super tinted bleh retak? Sorry Papi Sorry Fucker. Err should i mention here it cost Papi around 1k++ to tuko cermin depan tu :p .Sayang sungguh papi padaku as Icam quote ‘hish ko, jangan, kete ibarat bini kat laki.. sayang betol hasrul kat ko..’

When I got pregnant papi decided to let go Fucker coz we barely use him. Sedih gak coz we really love him. No. We never makeout inside Fucker. No worries. Finally on last September we say babai to him. The good things are we spend the whole day together. Went to the bank, puspakom & meet the new owner. Isk Isk..

Babai Fucker.. Till we meet again.

Kemalasan Melampaui Batas

OK. I'M SO MALAS NOWADAYS. KALAH TAHAP MALAS DOLU2. DEWA PUNYE MALAS. HISHH BILA LA NAK BUANG PERANGAI MALAS NIH..ZZZZZZZ